CAPTIVATING

Mid January, already? For many seasons I have been longing and searching. I recently received a wonderful gift during recovery from my unexpected surgery. It was given in hopes that it would help with my healing. I have been praying for healing of many things. Much of it has centered around my little girl's heart and life experience. The gift is a book called Captivating.......unveiling the mystery of a woman's soul. The book was written by a married couple, John and Stasi Eldredge who do Christian counseling and writing. In a brief sentence from the back cover of the book it reads: The desires you had as a little girl and the longings you still feel as a woman-----they are telling you of the life God created you to live. Wow. It is amazing the things it helps me to understand. It is amazing the renewed hope it provides that my heart is exactly the heart God meant for me to share and live fully. I am, I will try to put new perspectives into action. Funny, a recent brief note from my husband said that I had captivated him the night we met and that I still captivate him nearly thirty years later. I had never heard him say that before. I have not felt captivating for a long time. Then I pick up a book I had only taken brief time to peruse, having become overly distracted with day ins and day outs, and it hits me on the head at the perfect timing for me to pick it back up. CAPTIVATING. I had forgotten the title. I am nearing the last chapters. I am learning that God made all women captivating. It was His Divine plan and His will that we see ourselves as very special. He made us this way regardless how confusing it is to deal with the particulars of femininity. We often feel we are marked with all sorts of flaws that rob us of loving ourselves and seeing ourselves as captivating in the eyes ~ lives of others. Captivating to our own eyes. In the eyes and will of God. It is mid January and I will work on becoming more captivating in a still new year with a newer understanding. God made me this way and He would not have me any other way. How I long to become increasingly captivating to His Glory in ways I have not understood.