Stealing Bread Crumbs

It is said that when one draws closer to God, Satan pulls greater distractions, greater attempts to foil our plan to be with our Father of fathers. In just these past few days, I've been hitting one speed bump after another placed by the devil to thwart my progress to a greater place, to greater peace, to greater worship. Satan is doing his best to steal my bread crumbs and sour the wine. My energy level is dropping as a large, heavy rain comes down in a storm. As the energy is depleted so is the emotional, spiritual, mental state of mind. The rather short lived respite from what is leading to a greater possibility to be related to Chronic Fatigue Syndrome, has returned before I wanted it to. The 'relief' of medical consults and justifications of how I've felt for quite some time helps me to understand it, but it also makes it difficult to learn to live with things and cope with unexpected bad days. These are times my emotions seem to go up and down like a gigantic roller coaster at the huge 'get away' 'have some fun' type of distraction. The bread crumbs get trampled, eaten up by something, someone else. Constant phone calls concerning care coordination for my parents and for Clay, scheduling my own medical followups and new referrals, finding some me time outside of home with limited in home care for Clay.........I'm losing sight of my bread crumbs.........the devil is devouring a large portion of God's fuel for me. Some days it seems Satan has taken each and every little crumb of bread and sip of wine that God intended me to find and be nourished by. I despise the devil and his ploys. Lord, help me to cling to you and not give in to one who hates my love of my Father. I will always be his child and I will find ways to overcome the continual stumbling blocks that are thrown at me that tempt me to fall and forget how to get back up. I will always be hungry for bread and wine.